If I had my life to do over again I would make the same mistakes, they were fun.
I'm really thankful for the fact that when I was falling in love with people in my past (or lust or whatever that feeling is) I went with it. I fell in heart first. It is a wonderful feeling. I'm afraid I can't feel that anymore. I'm too closed, too jaded, to old. Maybe I'm overreacting. Maybe this is just a phase. But I can't tell the future, and there is no way for me to know. And it if it were to never happen again I'm glad I experienced those feelings so completely. I didn't hide. I was completely me. I let my guts pour out of my heart like I didn't have a care in the world. Maybe it is a foolish way to behave, but it is also beautiful. It's the stuff that brilliant lives are made of. Fear makes a person dull.
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