I'm reading Hemingway. I feel like Henry, in a Farewell to Arms, drinking himself into jaundice.
Then I see how old he was when he wrote his first novel. 27. Okay there is still time.
Then I remember this interview I saw with Quentin Tarantino. He said that he wasn't ever afraid to die until he wrote Pulp Fiction. After that he was afraid, because maybe that is what he was on the Earth to do. So I looked up how old he was when he wrote Pulp Fiction. 31.
Maybe there is time.
I never feel scared. Maybe that means that I haven't done what I am here to do. Or maybe that means I am just really stupid.