I may have given the wrong impression

I may have given it out generously.  Then I called take-backs.  It was shitty.  I let my loneliness rule the show for a while.  I'm back in charge.

I was looking so fucking hot last night.  I think I broke up two couples last night with the shirt I was wearing.  And I was the fucking loser looking for the girl who was ditching me.

There is something wrong with me no doubt.  

And my friend said on the way home "You were second guessing yourself. It was like I didn't even know you."  Ouch.  Fucking ouch.  

Why am I still thinking about this girl?

And I let her ruin my night.  

Why am I constantly searching for ways to waste my time?