Will I pay for who I've been?

I have been listening to a lot of Tori Amos (if you haven't noticed). I like to sing Happy Phantom. It sounds like it is sort of cheery and fun. The lyrics are pretty bleak.

And if I die today I'll be the happy phantom
And I'll go chasin' the nuns out in the yard
And I'll run naked through the streets without my mask on
And I will never need umbrellas in the rain
I'll wake up in strawberry fields every day
And the atrocities of school I can forgive
The happy phantom has no right to bitch

Oo who, the time is getting closer
Oo who, time to be a ghost
Oo who, every day we're getting closer
The sun is getting dim
Will we pay
For who we been, yeah

So if I die today, I'll be the happy phantom
And I'll go wearin' my naughties like a jewel
They'll be my ticket to the universal opera
There's Judy Garland taking Buddha by the hand
And then those seven little men get up to dance
They say Confucius does his crossword with a pen
I'm still the angel to a girl who hates to sin

Oo who, the time is getting closer
Oo who, time to be a ghost
Oo who, every day we're getting closer
The sun is getting dim
Will I pay
For who I been, yeah

Or will I see you, dear, and wish I could come back
You found a girl that you could truly love again
Will you still call for me when she falls asleep
Or do we soon forget the things we cannot see

Oo who, the time is getting closer
Oo who, time to be a ghost
Oo who, every day we're getting closer
The sun is getting dim
Will I pay
For who I been, yeah
And if I die today
And if I die today
And if I die today
Ah-ha, chasing nuns out in the yard