Um, is it supposed to hurt like that?

When I wake up the first thought that runs through my mind is, "Damn, not again." Isn't it a pity about your life when you wish you didn't wake up. Waking up has never done anything for me! I am always tired and I know that I have to go to my miserable job in which I sit for five hours and wish for death. I would rather bang my head on a wall for five hours. I am worth more than this idiotic, bullshit! Aren't I? Probably not. Do other people feel this way? How do people do it? I am not very good at life. Maybe I need to try harder at being happy. Is that something you can do just try harder to make "happy" happen? Probably not. I'm praying for tidal waves.